Seamen

Well...I am now back to blogging about the updates that I owe all of you. I have started with the month of January with the wedding of my close friend Julie Ann. January also opened up my eyes to what Filipino overseas workers do when they are far away from home. Now, I am not saying that all of them do it, but this is what I had witnessed.

A friend of mine invited me to come to a party on a boat. Of course I came coz I love parties and free food. When we got there...it wasn't the boat that I was hoping. It as actaully a ship...not a cruise ship either, it's more like a freight carrier. When we got there, it wasn't just us there were a lot of other Filipinas who were already partying it up with the Filipino seamen. Then I realzed something...these men who are out there in the middle of nowhere just surrounded by water 6 months at a time are really looking for sex once the ship docks somewhere...and that is why they throw these so called "parties"...then throw some women who can't get a boyfriend coz they are either fugly or too busy to socialize coz they are working 24/7...you will then have a party filled with people who are looking to get laid. Now, I am not int othis kind of thing, but since there was free food, alcohol, and karaoke...I was sort of having a little bit of fun...and the guys were actually really nice. When the unholy hours started ticking, couples started disappearing...and nextthing you know...I was all alone in the "party" room. I didn't appreciate this at all. I just hope that my friend who invited me to this party could have informed me that she was looking to get laid. I wouldn't have come then. Nonetheless, I was there...bored as hell coz there was no WiFi reception, there was no cable signal either...I wanted to shoot myself. So, I wasn't about to be left alone...I got into my bitch gear and called up my friend and demanded that we leave right away.

It's just amazes me what length people would go to just to get laid. Anyways, next time somebody asks you to go on a party up on a boat, ASK QUESTIONS.

Not Ready To Make Nice

Last night, I had a fight with my dad. It's one of the many that we have had, and I know it won't be the last - I am actually looking forward to more fights that we will be having in the future.

I just have to say that I DO NOT really like my dad. I never grew up with a dad, or at least it did not feel like I had a dad. He was there to put me through school and for almost all the material things that I needed, but other than that, he was a big void in my life.

My dad never bought me a bike, he never taught me how to ride one. My dad never took me in one of those father and son trips where all you do is spend the day with each other and bond. My dad promised me A LOT of things and NONE of which were fulfilled. I guess promises are meant to be broken after all. To say the least, I was very disappointed. One would think that he would do right by me consideringthe fact that he pretty much experienced the same thing when he was growing up.

I could go on and rant about my dad and what he did to me, but I won't. I guess all that I am trying to say is that I am not ready to make nice...and I don't think that I ever will. So, I guess this Dixie Chicks song is for my dad...

Moving On

Honestly, I wanted to name this entry, "It ain't over 'til it's over".

Why? It's because Jonathan and I are talking again. However, I just realized that no matter how much I pursue this, or work on the relationship, it WILL NEVER WORK.

Jonathan just turned 17 and I will be turning 26 in about 2 weeks. Considering the age gap that we have, I know that we will never see eye to eye in a lot of things. When September rolls in, he will be back in HIGH SCHOOL and I will be working. In school, he will be with a lot of guys that he would most likely find more attractive than I am...and the most important thing is that they would be around his age. I understand that Jonathan still has A LOT of growing up to do. He also has a lot of things to learn and experience. I am not sure that I am ready to go back into my teen years and experience the same stuff AGAIN. As much as I would like to take this journey with him, I know deep inside that he has to wander and fly by himself and grow up. It's SAD, I know. The least that I can do is hope that someday, somewhere, our paths would cross again and hopefully that time, we will be given the chance to be together.

Like what I have told Jonathan before, once that I like someone, I will always have a special place in my heart for them...that is until they give me a reason to hate them. Nonetheless, I will really miss Jonathan...I will miss the late night talks, the flirting, the laughs, and most especially, the way that he made me feel.

I wish that I didn't fall too fast, but I guess that's just the way that I am. Until my broken heart is fully mended, I will just be singing the song below. Click on it if you want to hear my theme song for the next couple of weeks.

Well, now that I am done (hopefully) blogging about my whirlwind of a summer romance, I will continue blogging about the updates that I owe all of you.

It's Over

It's OVER!!!

My summer romance ended as fast as it started! In exactly 7 days, I was elated, I was in love, and I got my heart broken. To say the least, I had been PLAYED by a 17 year old guy. I guess you can't really expect him to date a 26 year old guy like me. I am fine with that. I can live with the fact that there will be guys who will not want me, or will not take me for the way that I am. The thing that hurts the most about this 7 day whirlwind of a romance is that I was lead on to believe that there was something, when there was absolutely nothing. I HATE that.

I will live. I have been hurt before, but like all wounds this will take some time. I hate the fact that I always fall so fast, but I guess that's just the way that I am.

It's a good thing that I am Filipino, I have a lot of sad love songs to choose from.

Cradle Snatcher

I have a HUGE problem.

I am turning 26 in less than 4 weeks and I seem to be in love with someone who just turned 17 yesterday. So, I am asking you guys...what should I do?

I'd love to hear your comments too.

Thanks for helping.

Dissed

Two days ago, I visited my friends at the airport and I met this 16 year old boy who was going to turn 17 on July 25th - he was the guy who dissed me.

Well, here goes the story...

I was talking to my friend who I haven't seen in a while and the kid walks by and sees me. When I left to say hi to my other friends who were working at Starbucks, he kept asking my friend Regie stuff about me. Obviously, my friend did not leave out the information that I play for the other team. The kid was apparently elated. When I came back to talk to Regie, the kid was talking to me and telling my that it would be his birthday the next day and that he would like someone to buy him a cake and flowers. I thought he was joking, so I kind of brushed it off and went with Regie to have a smoke. While having a smoke outside, something in me wanted to buy the kid a rose. Long story short, I did buy the kid a pink rose. At first I didn't know how to give it as I have never given a rose to another guy before. But, through peer pressure from Regie and Toni, I ended up giving the kid a rose. It was NICE seeing the kid smile from surprise and delight. So, I got my flirt on and stayed at the store the kid was working at pretending that I was there to talk to Regie. In the end, the kid gave me his facebook. Well played, I thought to myself.

Apparently, I misread the signs, or I mistook kindness and politeness for flirting back. I got a call today and Regie told me that Daniela, the kid's friend told her that the kid DOES NOT like me at all, not one bit. I was kind of just laughing on the other end of the line. But, I think that deep inside, I was actually crushed. I have put my love live in the back seat for a VERY LONG time, and now that I actually decided to take a chance, I got dissed. REALLY SAD!

Maybe it's just not the right time for me...maybe, I should just wait...maybe I am just meant to be SINGLE.

This incident makes me qusetion myself, "Am I the JUST FRIENDS type?"

New Crushes

Well, I was just hanging out yesterday and I should say that it was very productive. Now, I have three new crushes, and I think that I am going through my Asian phase again coz all three of them are Asian. I was totally getting my flirt on yesterday. So, check them out and see who I should go out with. In all honesty, I think I am in love with one of them.

Jonathan

Hagen

Josh

Back To Blog

I am back bitches!

After a VERY LONG absence from blogging, I think I am ready to say that I am BACK. I have to say that I really missed blogging. Although it kept me up until the unholy hours of the night, blogging was very satisfying to me; it was and it still is a form of release for me - an outlet for my angst and all the other emotions that run through me.

There have been interesting changes in my life that started July 1st of this year...so keep checking in and you wil be updated with my so called life.

Guess Who?!

Who is the guy in the picture?

...I will tell you all about him at a later date.

I Have Been Busy

Well, I have been REALLY busy lately and that is why I have not blogged in a VERY long time. I am so SORRY.

What's new with me?

Well, as I have told you guys before, I am back in the work force and that takes a lot of my time. Because of work, I mostly just crash in bed. I am also most likely to be busier since the holiday season is coming. However, I would TRY to keep blogging.

Router, ISP, I am back!

If you've noticed, I haven't posted anything in almost a week and this is because I was having router issues. Apparently, the router that I bought last year is now OLD and that is why my internet connection wasn't working. I of course called my ISP first to find out if there are service issues in our area 'coz of all the construction that are going around for the 2010 Winter Olympics. My ISP said that everything is supposed to be working fine and that the problem might be with the router. So, I then called the technical support hotline. OMG, the call center that I called is in India. To say the least, the call wasn't at all pleasant. I kept saying, "what?", because I can baely understand what they were saying. So, I just decided to be a bitch, and give the third world call center agent hell. Well, I think that he brought it upon himself. I was already peeved 'coz my internet isn't working and how dare he raise his voice to me and talk to me in a very condescending way. So, I unleashed the BITCH and he got more than what he had bargained for and I could tell that it wasn't at all pleasant for him 'coz it was around 4:00 am in India when I made the call.

Anyways, I took them down a couple of notches, BIG TIME! So, instead of updating the software of my router, I decided to buy a new one and spend $70 (including taxes). So, I am now back on line and will be posting entries again.

Though I was not used to having an internet connection. The past week wasn't actually bad 'coz I realized that I was apending way too much time in front of my laptop. The week that I didn't have connection, I was able to go out and socialize and catch up with friends. It was great! I guess I would have to manage my time better 'coz I think I am still single 'coz I pretty much just spend time with my laptop and watch my dramas.

Welcome Back Bro!

After quite a while of not living in our house and trying to make it out on his own, my brother finally decided to move back with us. Yay! We are all so happy. I know that I am ecstatic about this 'coz I love my brother so much! It might not seem like it but it's true. I LOVE MY BROTHER! He's the only brother I have (or at least he's the only brother that I know of). Anyways, I just would like to welcome him back!

I know that my mom is really happy about this 'coz she once again will have another person to drive her around. Hahahaha!

Home Alone

Well, I will be home alone this weekend. My parents are on a weekend get-away with their friends. They will all be in Whistler, BC. I on the other hand will be all by myself in our house for 3 days. I just hope that nothing bad happens and that I stay safe. I am so bored! I am not sure what to do!

AARRRGGHHHH!!!

I Have A New Job

I just wanted to share with you guys that after almost a month of being unemployed, I now have a new job. Yes, it's just a job! It's not a career or anything, but I guess it wil do for now. I have to be honest that I was really BORED when I was unemployed. The only good thing that came with being unemployed is that I got to spend a lot of time with my dog (Mojo), and I got to catch up on my reading. Now, I am not going to go into details of what I would be doing and where. I don't want any stalkers! Anyways, I start work on Monday. Thankfully, I just live about 15 minutes away from where I would be working so I would still be able to sleep in (plus, my shift isn't that early).

I am so happy now that I have a job. I will no longer be bored and I can now put my travel plans in order.

"TO JOBS THAT PAY THE RENT!"