Moving On

Honestly, I wanted to name this entry, "It ain't over 'til it's over".

Why? It's because Jonathan and I are talking again. However, I just realized that no matter how much I pursue this, or work on the relationship, it WILL NEVER WORK.

Jonathan just turned 17 and I will be turning 26 in about 2 weeks. Considering the age gap that we have, I know that we will never see eye to eye in a lot of things. When September rolls in, he will be back in HIGH SCHOOL and I will be working. In school, he will be with a lot of guys that he would most likely find more attractive than I am...and the most important thing is that they would be around his age. I understand that Jonathan still has A LOT of growing up to do. He also has a lot of things to learn and experience. I am not sure that I am ready to go back into my teen years and experience the same stuff AGAIN. As much as I would like to take this journey with him, I know deep inside that he has to wander and fly by himself and grow up. It's SAD, I know. The least that I can do is hope that someday, somewhere, our paths would cross again and hopefully that time, we will be given the chance to be together.

Like what I have told Jonathan before, once that I like someone, I will always have a special place in my heart for them...that is until they give me a reason to hate them. Nonetheless, I will really miss Jonathan...I will miss the late night talks, the flirting, the laughs, and most especially, the way that he made me feel.

I wish that I didn't fall too fast, but I guess that's just the way that I am. Until my broken heart is fully mended, I will just be singing the song below. Click on it if you want to hear my theme song for the next couple of weeks.

Well, now that I am done (hopefully) blogging about my whirlwind of a summer romance, I will continue blogging about the updates that I owe all of you.

It's Over

It's OVER!!!

My summer romance ended as fast as it started! In exactly 7 days, I was elated, I was in love, and I got my heart broken. To say the least, I had been PLAYED by a 17 year old guy. I guess you can't really expect him to date a 26 year old guy like me. I am fine with that. I can live with the fact that there will be guys who will not want me, or will not take me for the way that I am. The thing that hurts the most about this 7 day whirlwind of a romance is that I was lead on to believe that there was something, when there was absolutely nothing. I HATE that.

I will live. I have been hurt before, but like all wounds this will take some time. I hate the fact that I always fall so fast, but I guess that's just the way that I am.

It's a good thing that I am Filipino, I have a lot of sad love songs to choose from.

Cradle Snatcher

I have a HUGE problem.

I am turning 26 in less than 4 weeks and I seem to be in love with someone who just turned 17 yesterday. So, I am asking you guys...what should I do?

I'd love to hear your comments too.

Thanks for helping.

Dissed

Two days ago, I visited my friends at the airport and I met this 16 year old boy who was going to turn 17 on July 25th - he was the guy who dissed me.

Well, here goes the story...

I was talking to my friend who I haven't seen in a while and the kid walks by and sees me. When I left to say hi to my other friends who were working at Starbucks, he kept asking my friend Regie stuff about me. Obviously, my friend did not leave out the information that I play for the other team. The kid was apparently elated. When I came back to talk to Regie, the kid was talking to me and telling my that it would be his birthday the next day and that he would like someone to buy him a cake and flowers. I thought he was joking, so I kind of brushed it off and went with Regie to have a smoke. While having a smoke outside, something in me wanted to buy the kid a rose. Long story short, I did buy the kid a pink rose. At first I didn't know how to give it as I have never given a rose to another guy before. But, through peer pressure from Regie and Toni, I ended up giving the kid a rose. It was NICE seeing the kid smile from surprise and delight. So, I got my flirt on and stayed at the store the kid was working at pretending that I was there to talk to Regie. In the end, the kid gave me his facebook. Well played, I thought to myself.

Apparently, I misread the signs, or I mistook kindness and politeness for flirting back. I got a call today and Regie told me that Daniela, the kid's friend told her that the kid DOES NOT like me at all, not one bit. I was kind of just laughing on the other end of the line. But, I think that deep inside, I was actually crushed. I have put my love live in the back seat for a VERY LONG time, and now that I actually decided to take a chance, I got dissed. REALLY SAD!

Maybe it's just not the right time for me...maybe, I should just wait...maybe I am just meant to be SINGLE.

This incident makes me qusetion myself, "Am I the JUST FRIENDS type?"

New Crushes

Well, I was just hanging out yesterday and I should say that it was very productive. Now, I have three new crushes, and I think that I am going through my Asian phase again coz all three of them are Asian. I was totally getting my flirt on yesterday. So, check them out and see who I should go out with. In all honesty, I think I am in love with one of them.

Jonathan

Hagen

Josh