Seamen

Well...I am now back to blogging about the updates that I owe all of you. I have started with the month of January with the wedding of my close friend Julie Ann. January also opened up my eyes to what Filipino overseas workers do when they are far away from home. Now, I am not saying that all of them do it, but this is what I had witnessed.

A friend of mine invited me to come to a party on a boat. Of course I came coz I love parties and free food. When we got there...it wasn't the boat that I was hoping. It as actaully a ship...not a cruise ship either, it's more like a freight carrier. When we got there, it wasn't just us there were a lot of other Filipinas who were already partying it up with the Filipino seamen. Then I realzed something...these men who are out there in the middle of nowhere just surrounded by water 6 months at a time are really looking for sex once the ship docks somewhere...and that is why they throw these so called "parties"...then throw some women who can't get a boyfriend coz they are either fugly or too busy to socialize coz they are working 24/7...you will then have a party filled with people who are looking to get laid. Now, I am not int othis kind of thing, but since there was free food, alcohol, and karaoke...I was sort of having a little bit of fun...and the guys were actually really nice. When the unholy hours started ticking, couples started disappearing...and nextthing you know...I was all alone in the "party" room. I didn't appreciate this at all. I just hope that my friend who invited me to this party could have informed me that she was looking to get laid. I wouldn't have come then. Nonetheless, I was there...bored as hell coz there was no WiFi reception, there was no cable signal either...I wanted to shoot myself. So, I wasn't about to be left alone...I got into my bitch gear and called up my friend and demanded that we leave right away.

It's just amazes me what length people would go to just to get laid. Anyways, next time somebody asks you to go on a party up on a boat, ASK QUESTIONS.

Not Ready To Make Nice

Last night, I had a fight with my dad. It's one of the many that we have had, and I know it won't be the last - I am actually looking forward to more fights that we will be having in the future.

I just have to say that I DO NOT really like my dad. I never grew up with a dad, or at least it did not feel like I had a dad. He was there to put me through school and for almost all the material things that I needed, but other than that, he was a big void in my life.

My dad never bought me a bike, he never taught me how to ride one. My dad never took me in one of those father and son trips where all you do is spend the day with each other and bond. My dad promised me A LOT of things and NONE of which were fulfilled. I guess promises are meant to be broken after all. To say the least, I was very disappointed. One would think that he would do right by me consideringthe fact that he pretty much experienced the same thing when he was growing up.

I could go on and rant about my dad and what he did to me, but I won't. I guess all that I am trying to say is that I am not ready to make nice...and I don't think that I ever will. So, I guess this Dixie Chicks song is for my dad...

Moving On

Honestly, I wanted to name this entry, "It ain't over 'til it's over".

Why? It's because Jonathan and I are talking again. However, I just realized that no matter how much I pursue this, or work on the relationship, it WILL NEVER WORK.

Jonathan just turned 17 and I will be turning 26 in about 2 weeks. Considering the age gap that we have, I know that we will never see eye to eye in a lot of things. When September rolls in, he will be back in HIGH SCHOOL and I will be working. In school, he will be with a lot of guys that he would most likely find more attractive than I am...and the most important thing is that they would be around his age. I understand that Jonathan still has A LOT of growing up to do. He also has a lot of things to learn and experience. I am not sure that I am ready to go back into my teen years and experience the same stuff AGAIN. As much as I would like to take this journey with him, I know deep inside that he has to wander and fly by himself and grow up. It's SAD, I know. The least that I can do is hope that someday, somewhere, our paths would cross again and hopefully that time, we will be given the chance to be together.

Like what I have told Jonathan before, once that I like someone, I will always have a special place in my heart for them...that is until they give me a reason to hate them. Nonetheless, I will really miss Jonathan...I will miss the late night talks, the flirting, the laughs, and most especially, the way that he made me feel.

I wish that I didn't fall too fast, but I guess that's just the way that I am. Until my broken heart is fully mended, I will just be singing the song below. Click on it if you want to hear my theme song for the next couple of weeks.

Well, now that I am done (hopefully) blogging about my whirlwind of a summer romance, I will continue blogging about the updates that I owe all of you.

It's Over

It's OVER!!!

My summer romance ended as fast as it started! In exactly 7 days, I was elated, I was in love, and I got my heart broken. To say the least, I had been PLAYED by a 17 year old guy. I guess you can't really expect him to date a 26 year old guy like me. I am fine with that. I can live with the fact that there will be guys who will not want me, or will not take me for the way that I am. The thing that hurts the most about this 7 day whirlwind of a romance is that I was lead on to believe that there was something, when there was absolutely nothing. I HATE that.

I will live. I have been hurt before, but like all wounds this will take some time. I hate the fact that I always fall so fast, but I guess that's just the way that I am.

It's a good thing that I am Filipino, I have a lot of sad love songs to choose from.

Cradle Snatcher

I have a HUGE problem.

I am turning 26 in less than 4 weeks and I seem to be in love with someone who just turned 17 yesterday. So, I am asking you guys...what should I do?

I'd love to hear your comments too.

Thanks for helping.

Dissed

Two days ago, I visited my friends at the airport and I met this 16 year old boy who was going to turn 17 on July 25th - he was the guy who dissed me.

Well, here goes the story...

I was talking to my friend who I haven't seen in a while and the kid walks by and sees me. When I left to say hi to my other friends who were working at Starbucks, he kept asking my friend Regie stuff about me. Obviously, my friend did not leave out the information that I play for the other team. The kid was apparently elated. When I came back to talk to Regie, the kid was talking to me and telling my that it would be his birthday the next day and that he would like someone to buy him a cake and flowers. I thought he was joking, so I kind of brushed it off and went with Regie to have a smoke. While having a smoke outside, something in me wanted to buy the kid a rose. Long story short, I did buy the kid a pink rose. At first I didn't know how to give it as I have never given a rose to another guy before. But, through peer pressure from Regie and Toni, I ended up giving the kid a rose. It was NICE seeing the kid smile from surprise and delight. So, I got my flirt on and stayed at the store the kid was working at pretending that I was there to talk to Regie. In the end, the kid gave me his facebook. Well played, I thought to myself.

Apparently, I misread the signs, or I mistook kindness and politeness for flirting back. I got a call today and Regie told me that Daniela, the kid's friend told her that the kid DOES NOT like me at all, not one bit. I was kind of just laughing on the other end of the line. But, I think that deep inside, I was actually crushed. I have put my love live in the back seat for a VERY LONG time, and now that I actually decided to take a chance, I got dissed. REALLY SAD!

Maybe it's just not the right time for me...maybe, I should just wait...maybe I am just meant to be SINGLE.

This incident makes me qusetion myself, "Am I the JUST FRIENDS type?"

New Crushes

Well, I was just hanging out yesterday and I should say that it was very productive. Now, I have three new crushes, and I think that I am going through my Asian phase again coz all three of them are Asian. I was totally getting my flirt on yesterday. So, check them out and see who I should go out with. In all honesty, I think I am in love with one of them.

Jonathan

Hagen

Josh

January Wedding

January must have been the busiest month of thie year so far. I had to help organize and plan the wedding of one of my closest friends, Julie Ann.

After a year of dating, Antoni (Antek as he is fondly called), Julie Ann decided to get married - she was pregnant after all. I just have to say that their relationship was not at all like a fairytale. Antek looked like a prince though. Anyways, we were all doubtful of Antek's real intentions of marrying Julie Ann. We were all worried that he was just marrying Julie Ann for the sake of getting Canadian citizenship. Well, both Julie Ann and Antek weathered the storm and they did continue with the wedding. In front of God, their family, and friends, they vowed to love each other for the rest of their lives - in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, till death do they part.

Above is the picture of my friend Julie Ann and her GORGEOUS husband Antek on their wedding day. I would like to know who would want to screw the hot Polak groom, so please answer the poll question below. When you are making the decision, please keep in mind that Antek has a great body (he's into wrestling), and as per Julie Ann, he is GIFTED down there.

Anyways, we're almost into August and they are still together and they now have a beautiful baby girl. I guess we really shouldn't judge those people who get married. Love is the most powerful thing in the world after all.

Well, for those of you who weren't at the wedding above is a video of the highlights of the wedding made by Marcin.

In this day and age, where marriage seems to be overrated, do you still believe in marriage?

Well...below is what my wedding cake topper would look like. That is if I ever get married.

*Well, that's the first of the many updates that I need to blog about so keep checking in.

Back To Blog

I am back bitches!

After a VERY LONG absence from blogging, I think I am ready to say that I am BACK. I have to say that I really missed blogging. Although it kept me up until the unholy hours of the night, blogging was very satisfying to me; it was and it still is a form of release for me - an outlet for my angst and all the other emotions that run through me.

There have been interesting changes in my life that started July 1st of this year...so keep checking in and you wil be updated with my so called life.